Monday, February 6, 2017

If I Could Go Back


I have often heard people say they wish they could go back in time, that they would and they would change some things. I was a pretty smug young lady and, I thought the idea was absurd.

I was always the one self-righteously proclaiming, “I don’t NEED to go back. I’m going to live my life so I won’t have any regrets. So, I definitely don’t need to go back”, I said loudly from my perch upon my mighty High-Horse.

Life came along and gave me a good slap in the face, taught me a few things the hard way. That set me stumbling on a different path than the holier-than-thou path I had envisioned for myself.

Okay, okay, okay. I cry “UNCLE”. I give!

Can I go back? Can I change my mind?

If I could change my mind, If I COULD go back, I would go in a heartbeat. I would change some things. As a matter of fact, I would change a whole LOT of things. For starters, I would…

-Break some rules, especially some of those rules my mama had. I got beatings all the time anyway. So breaking those rules would only mean a few more beatings. Hahahaaaaa!

-Speak up for myself more instead of always listening to other peoples’ points of view.

-Party like crazy! I’d sneak out of the house at night and party instead of staying home like a “miss-goody-two-shoes”. I’d have some of that fun my friends laughed and talked about when grownups were not around. I’d get more beatings, but so what. I got more than my share of them without cause. 

-Be more adventurous! Enough said about that.

-I would be as WILD AS A DAT-GUMMED DEER!!!

There now, I got that off my chest. 

6 comments:

dellgirl said...

There is one other thing I would do while I'm at it. I would stop by club ZaBangp and dance and have a good time with the other kids waiting for their buses to go home. I'd dance and laugh and have a good time with the other kids instead of going straight home like I always did. So what does that mean? A good butt whooping, well probably going to get one anyway for some little thing or another.

Lin Floyd said...

wisdom can come from looking back and realizing our regrets are an important part of who we became and are!

Adam said...

It would be nice to revert back to your young self with all your memories and start "over". I could certainly been able to save my father from lung cancer

dellgirl said...

Yes Lin, The most important thing I learned as I got older is that I was quite the high and mighty young lady. Life taught me quite the lesson on that one!

dellgirl said...

I'm sorry about your father Adam. My sympathies are with you. You were right about going back with our memories. I would also wish to have The knowledge that I have gained if I could go back.

Anthony Godinho said...

Yeah, it's nice to look back sometimes, Leoana, and see how things could have turned out if...but like you ended this post...it's never too late to be more adventurous! :)